Saturday, August 23, 2008
NOTE: I might hurt everyone's feeling after you have read this post. But, this is what I truly feel about it.
It's back to training for me on a saturday morning.
Ever since I've stepped into Innotrek, I've started to see the team in another angle.
It's like I'm looking at CWDB's problem from outside of the team. I wanna solve it, but, like what I've observed, I can't possibly jump in and solve it just like that. Imma no one in the team except a rower and everything I've said is no use. Even if I really care about the team, no one cares.
Why?
Egoistic people.
Because, I've learnt to
receive feedbacks/comments -no matter good or bad- from anyone with an open mind, and also help your friends to cover their asses when anything cocks up.
Really, ever since Mac told me to take the seasoned trainers' comments/feedbacks of things that I done, I have learnt alot.
Le sigh.
Things have changed ever since I went into attachment. The management is totally different, peoples' attitude changed, coach's coaching technique is different, two new coaches cum manager for the girls' team, warm-ups for sea training gone, land training location changed, everyone don't go out for dinner after training anymore etcetc.
It seems like I'm being left behind due to attachment. I really hope that I could catch up with CWDB. It's like, I could literally feel the irritation from the girls after I ask Farh on how to do the recovery and to run through the strokes with me since it's a long time since I last hit the waters.
I've already put in my best. Whatever you want to say, it's up to you to say it in my face, in front of me or behind my back. I don't care. I've already did my best.
I heard some things that I can't really stand. It's like you don't need to bitch about people to get things your way. Because, at the end of the day, the problem is still on you.
Sigh...
xoxoxo
grouptrainer<3
9:06 PM