Gawd, my out fit for chu yi was superb. Was wanting to wear my orange tank top but mum said it's too bright since we're still mourning for my grandpa.
For once, my new year outfit wasn't a disaster.
Dang! I forgot to camwhore cans? )):
Chu er (which was yesterday) was spent lepaking with Green Bean, Alan, Shaqhil.
Dammit, we forgot to take photos!
)):
Chu san, which will be today, will be spent with my girls and maybe some shopping in town(:
Okay, gotta go get ready(:
P/S: I won $20 odd from playing BanLuck with my paternal cousin and aunts. X)
P/P/S: Project Night Run have just started last night. Although my stamina was damn chui, I intend to continue because I wanna go for my first ever marathon- Standard Charted 10km run.
xoxoxo
10:26 AM
New Year's great.
Just that everything that's happen made me can't believe myself anymore.
Whatever I did, everyone have some untrue things about me to say. What I meant about untrue is just simply putting words that I have never ever said into my mouth and telling people about it.
What's the prize?
Them making you a CC before I do?
Like hello, I have never thought of being a CC or a 2 i/c even. Even if I did, I'll only be able to dream on.
If this goes on, H, I know you'll be happy to see me go.
Let it be then.
P/S: Graduation ceremony on the 6th Feb
P/P/S: FT Partaye on the 20 Feb. (can't wait!)
xoxoxo
11:54 PM
These whole week have been superb yet tiring.
First up was NanYang Pri P5 camp. Although they may be a little bit notorious at times, I love them!
They really made my day.
They were just wonderful. PlusPlus, I got to work with Hakim the Cikgu and it was a good experience.
Then came the really last minute camp, Temasek Sec School.
I really love them to bits too!
Although it was super tiring, I thank god that the students weren't much of a problem to handle plus, thanks to my partner, Eugene, everything went fine.
It was also my first time working with Eugene and I was surprised how well it went and really, Eugene was really good. I forced myself to do belaying, be in the water for CV and do whatever it takes to keep myself awake and Eugene was like trying to help me do some of it since he knows that I'll be tired and I just did back to back camps.
Gawd, it's gonna be THREEam and i have to wake up at 6am.
Yay to me.
OHOH!
Outing with le bunch after work today.
Went to Ngee Ann City to find them but met Shaqhil instead because the rest went to Far East Plaza.
We both headed to FEP to find the Marcus and gang there together with le gang. Some pretty bitchy person just can't keep her mouth to herself and say sarcastic remarks to delibrately hurt a person's (or more) feelings.
Like hello, everyone already know that you don't like us for god know what reason, why make us hate you even more?
Okay lor, if you want us to hate you more, go ahead lor. All the damage have already done by you and your mouth. What else can I do?
Thanks to you, the job that found super fun, suits me to the max and outdoor somemore, is at stake.
But, don't worry, I'll try my best to hang on.
Okay, back to topic.
Okay so le bunch went to FEP for dinner then some of them went home and some of us went to Hort Park to lepak.
GREEN BEAN, I MISS YOU SOO MUCH CANS?
Okay, that sums up everything.
P/S: sleepng in a van+ a wonderful driver= FUN!
Le Bunchies, let's go Sentosa on sunday!
xoxoxo
2:42 AM
Seesh.
Dad went for his slipped disc operation and YES! It's successful!
*Sigh of relief*
At least I could go camp not worrying that much.
Training today was kinda frustrating with lots of contradictions but nevertheless, I would do anything to learn the newest stroke that we're learning.
Mann, I should be home earlier to pack for NYPS tomorrow and I could even join Shaqhil, Miq, Hakim and the rest at Lot1 lor. )):
Mehh~
Speaking of which, the people mentioned above was super super wonderful. After NYPS camp briefing yesterday, we decided to have lunchnner (lunch+dinner) at Lot1 but decided to head to Al Ameen instead. I had work so they headed down to meet Miq first. Met them after work and we were left with a few pieces of Naan after eating and Miq suggested the game called Pass the Naan. It was hilarious cans?
With people looking at us play and I was always the suay one that always have the smallest piece. )):
After deciding that the Naan wasn't enough, we paid and went to get bread. Found somewhere sat down lepak abit and started playing Pass the Bread. It was super funny cans? The guys look as if they were kissing each other laa! It was the game suck and blow. You're supposed to pass around a sweet wrapper around with only your mouth.
XP
No photos though. It's m18.
It was a fun night of lepaking but I had to skip the one today because I haven't pack for NYPS and I'm meeting Sha and some others 6AM at CCK!
Omg la, I hafta get up at such unearthly time tomorrow.
Geez.
P/S: Shaqhil AND THE REST, LET'S LEPAK AGAIN!!
xoxoxo
11:05 PM
AND YES! I FINALLY GOT A PROPER WALLET AND FINALLY GOT MY CRUMPLER!!
Take 1.
Take 2.
Take 3. (finally) XP
Farh and her Macaroon with Zul beside.
I love this pic! ZUL! WHY AIN'T YOU IN THE PIC???!! )):
The three of us.
Zul and Farh.
Farh and I
The three of us again. (HAHA! I covered my double chin with the handle of my paddle! XP)
Yep, we took all these in a very crowded train. XP
Pics from Camp Renewal and Shanghai
Mar and a guy from CR.
ex-CWDBER and CEDBER, Amin.
Riverside + my sis.
Singapore River@ 2009 Countdown.
CEDB, NUSDB, ex-CWDB
xoxoxo
6:59 PM
(in the tune of Always Be My Baby by David Cook)
We were as one family
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be well
So I'm letting you go
Cause I know in my heart grandpa
Our love will never die
No!
You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Hey don't you know you can't escape Him
Ooh grandpa cause you'll always be my grandpa
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh grandpa cause you'll always be my grandpa...
This song have been in my head since this morning. I don't know why but it's just stuck in my head. Then came evening, I was busy but the chorus of this song kept repeating in my head but replacing baby into grandpa.
I can't believe he's really leaving on Thursday. As I was burning joss paper in the evening, I was thinking about how guilty I've been feeling. Because I don't know why but I felt attached/close to my paternal grandpa. Maybe it's because he's the only grandpa alive previously or maybe it's because he lives with my family longer than any of my aunts or uncles (meaning that he's been living with me since I was really young.) and thinking of how I kinda shunned him while having him at my place and how I was so busy at work that I didn't have the time to visit him more often (as promised in my previous post) in the old folks home/hospital makes me feel guilty.
Maybe that's the reason why I didn't really want to come up when my mum told me to.
It feels as if time really passes so fast. One day my grandpa moved into my current home with my family, years later he moved into one of my aunt's place. Few weeks later he fell and knocked his head against something and that caused him to have partial stroke then he's back at my place from the hospital. After a few months, he moved into one of my uncle's place where he's not comfortable with, so it was back to my place again where all my aunts and uncles decided to put him into *ofh and that's where his condition detiorated. Landed him into hospital and everything happens.
I really wish that I could turn back time and suggest to my aunts and uncles that he stays at my place permantly and I could take care of him instead of my mum.
#
Maybe that song was on repeat mode in my mind was also because I miss EA.
Girls, I'm sorry if you felt that I gave up on you girls on the first day. I really do.
I didn't thought that I could pull through but girls, you made me believe that you girls can make it. You girls made me realise that I could pull through with the twelve of you.
On the last day when the trainers followed you onto the bus, I really wanted to. I may say that I don't know whether I still have work to do back in office, but deep down, I didn't bear to see you girls cry even though I know that most of you cry anyway.
Girls, stay strong. It's the start of a new school term. I want you to strive in school. Most imortantly, I want you to be happy.
*ofh= old folks home
xoxoxo
2:21 AM
St Margs girls was really really amazing.
But for me, there's a lesson to be learnt.
Yesterday Mimi gave me off to rest up.
Went for training and it was superb.
Went town to do shopping for the month (I got my Crumplers!) and headed down to West Coast Plaza to meet M for dinner at Fish&Co (The Best Fish and Chips In Town were wonderful and their Sharkie Freeze was humungous!). Then we headed to the bus stop to head home.
While waiting for our bus, I got a call from a teary sounding mum. "The hospital called and said *yeye's condition worsened the doctor told us(meaning everybody closely related the Cho family) to go down to the hospital now. Where are you?" at that moment, I was stunned and didn't know how to react. I told her that I was at westcoast and I don't know how to get to AH. Then the told me to keep in contact and head home.
Told M what happened and he said I could take a busto Queensway SC and walk or take a cab down since it wasn't too far from where I was. I took the second. He passed on at 1245 this morning.
I was thankful that M was there because, my mind was blank and I really didn't know what to do. Besides, I got a chance to see my grandpa before he left. While listening to my aunts and mum cry, the memories of my granpa filled my mind like how running water fills a bucket.
The way he tries to tickle us when we were young, the way he gives us coins to put into our piggy banks etcetc.
Sigh.
What a way to start a NewYear.
*yeye= grandpa in chinese
P/S: Thanks for the encouragements people. I really appreciate it.
P/P/S: Dad's gonna go for an operation for his slipped disc problem soon. (I'm hoping for the best.)
P/P/P/S: Emporio Armani I MISS YOU GIRLS!
xoxoxo
1:53 PM
The thought of another year passing, not only will I get a year older, there's things that I'll constantly be thinking about. Things that I will keep to myself and would tell when the time is right.
I'm just a lil tired of things in my life. Things that I really should let go and just move on.
All I want to do now is to take some off days and just spend my time on the beach. It's a good place for me to think and reflect.
I think I'll leave it to time then.
On a brighter note, the advert will be on my blog tomorrow. Hope everything goes well.
(:
xoxoxo
9:28 AM
