Saturday, December 20, 2008
I'm back from Camp Renewal 2008.
The feeling was kinda disappointing. Because I have never went for the previous Camp Renewals before and I'm being made to be trainer. Didn't know what to expect and I have people expecting things from me especially when I'm in a place that I have never been to. Even without solving this problem, I was/am having rumors about me and a certain guy. Plus, I don't know who I could trust.
I already felt pressurized even before the whole camp started. The current trainers in my group didn't make it better. The feeling is like being pushed into a ditch and leaving me with wild dogs around. Thank god for Miq and Calvin talked to me whenever I needed to someone to talk to.
In the end only one or two of the participants know that I'm under huge effing load of pressure. By the second day I really cannot tahan already somemore, I'm Kai wet's assistant, making it even worse. Basically, Kai's working attitude is too perfectionist. Besides, when I first heard that I'm working with Kai, I already have the intensions of backing out. but too bad, being a ppt, I couldn't say no to this camp.
Evaluation was done, and I saw one that say about me: ".....wrong choice of trainer.....didn't put trainer's level 2 into good use....no confidence.....must brush up...". It's super demoralising can. No encouragements no nothing. Like wtf la.
Yep, this affected me
alot as a trainer.
Sigh.
Okay, let's not talk about the shitty camp.
YESS! I'M FLYING OFF TO SHANGHAI ON TUESDAY!!
And I wanna get my hammock.
Random, I know. It's just that I regretting not getting one for Camp Renewal.
We're supposed to sleep in tents with wet ground and I didn't have a sleeping bag and all I had was a wooden orange bench as a bed. I woke up shivering. Why? tempreture was like 16-17 degree celcius in the morning.
Mehh.
Fine la. What all of you want is to bully me.
Fine lor, don't come to me when I cockup everything.
*UPDATE*
Okay, I was ranting about the camp just now that I forgotten to rant about the good stuff. The good thing is that I found two dbers, Amin from ITE College East, and Miq from Team NUS (yes KokAnn[if you're reading it that is], he knows your brother). I realised Miq first when he wore his team windbreaker and Amin when he wore his team jersey on the second night.
Like omg la, singapore super small can. Like this also meet db people. muahahaha!
Too bad amin went back on wednesday. HAHA!
OHOH, I almost forgot, I had a stargazing session with Miq and some other new trainers and we ended up playing 'I have never...' and '2 truth 1 lie' game and I nearly knocked out at the place where we were playing after Jones, Sai and Kai joined us. Miq walked me back to my orange bench then we said our goodnights and he went to join the rest of them. (:
I actually had fun with the new trainers. (:
Amazingly, they are the ones who made me sane. Thanks alot girls and guys! X)
xoxoxo
grouptrainer<3
12:17 PM
